That happened.

Yesterday I got to have a fun, much needed afternoon lunch with some of my favorite mom friends.  I’m incredibly lucky to have the support system that I do, and so grateful for these ladies.

While at said lunch, I jokingly said I should go get a tattoo.   “Yes!  Seriously yes, let’s do it!”

An hour later, this happened.

And then I had this:

It is likely the most spontaneous thing I have ever done.  It is for sure the most spontaneous thing I have ever personally initiated.  

The artist tried to get me to turn it the other way, but no dice.  This is for me, dude.

A reminder to love myself, to always choose love, to respond with love, to appreciate and accept all the love the universe is hell bent on bestowing on me.

I think my response was, “Nah.  I kinda hate everyone though.”

I don’t, obviously, but I tend to make jokes rather than getting too real.  I’m working on that too.  That’ll take some time, though, I can’t unlearn it over night, right?

So here’s to doing all the big scary things, to not overthinking, to trusting the process without knowing the outcome.

To smashing that quiet voice inside that says “You can’t/shouldn’t/won’t.”   To loving and accepting that other, braver, more authentic voice that wants to shout out “Yes!  Seriously let’s do it!” and then does it.

To doing the damn thing.

And loving it, of course.

This is my face after being told to stop giggling. 

I don’t know what to do with my face if I’m not laughing.  

 

Cross that one off!

If you’re playing along at home, I just knocked one thing off my list of 37 before 37!

To be fair, I said I’d learn to juggle…not that I’d learn to juggle well.

I am going to keep practicing because well, it’s fun as heck,  and I don’t want to half arse it, ya know?

Also, it’s a really great way to kill time waiting for Bree to get off the bus from school.

Yes, I live on a main road and no, I do not care that I’m the neighborhood weirdo.

Living the dream, y’all.

What should I tackle next?

I’m kinda the worst, right?

So much has changed since my last update.  I’m still crushing it with keto, and it’s so easy that it almost feels unfair.  The scale seems to be holding steady at about 180, but I’m still losing inches and feeling awesome.

I’ll be real honest for a minute, and say that my focus right now is really on improving my mental health.  I’ve got the fitness, food and sleep parts down, and right now I’m all about my mindset.  My brain and I, we aren’t the best of friends at the moment.  I’m overthinking everything, questioning myself, driving myself insane.

My life has been messy and complicated, but that’s life right?  Sometimes you just have to trust in the plan and step bravely into the unknown.

Things have been weird, different, and wildly wonderful.  It’s a strange mix of emotions at all times, but I feel like the Hot Mess Express will be pulling through the tunnel at any moment.  I’m not sure what the destination is, but I’ve decided to trust in things larger than me and see where I end up.

Do I sound like some weird new age version of a random positive meme generator, or what?

The kids are amazing, of course.  I have no idea how I got so lucky, but I swear my two favorite people on the planet just so happen to be MY kids.  Funny how that works out, right?  I wouldn’t trade those two silly, messy, thoughtful beings for anything in the world.

I just celebrated my 36 birthday,  and I’ve decided to take on a new list of 37 challenges I’d like to master before turning 37 next November.  Even though last year’s list had a bunch of things left to finish, I’ve decided to scratch that and start anew.

Here’s to new beginnings, and to maybe finally figuring out this whole life thing??

Nah, probably not.  But mazel tov to new beginnings at least!